series

today

i spent the day with my mother

brunch and some shopping, a movie and some coffee

she bought me colorful ceramic mugs and hugged me

she listed to me and made me feel loved

i really needed that

little one

i miss my sister and her wit

the way we used to watch 80's movies

and eat pound cake and strawberries

cheese and crackers

we're not talking

we've been growing apart for some time

ever since we both moved away

into the city

to our separate little apartments

we are two boats

slowly floating away from one another

in the middle of a vast ocean

i hope we find our way back to each other

through the waves and the wind

the differences and the pride

i want to get close again and feel like family

alone

crying in bed and curled up

against the wet pillowcase

hot burning cheeks and sore eyelids

my bed is empty and cold

the sounds of a cool breeze rustling through leaves

reminds me that times are changing

and i know that in time

i will catch my breath, fall asleep, and feel better