i cry when i think of you now. you have no fear of attachment, commitment, never afraid of longing for another. you're willing to do whatever it takes. this frightens me.
you're a beautiful, wonderful man; so selfless, so positive. amazing. real.you may have the most resilient, forgiving heart of anyone i've ever met. no one could ever take away the warmth and hope that you radiate - my viking sweetheart. i know you're so right, but are you right for me? i'm so sorry. i feel alone, a girl living in a castle surrounded by a moat of her own design.
i've cried everyday for a week and half. today more than most. i've taken three showers, trying to wash away the evidence. trying to be the girl that makes you smile. you want your answer, you deserve it. i don't have one. it's frustrating. it hurts. i wish i knew and wish it could go back to the beginning, so i'd have more time, but it feels like my time is running out and my deadline is fast approaching. please don't hate me. i've let you down and i'm sorry. i'm crying because i hurt you. i'm crying because i hurt. i'm crying because i want to feel something that i don't.
