already

surrounded by lush, green trees

candles and strangers

listening to spanish guitars

played by beautiful mexicans

i can't help it

emotions cascade through me

weighing heavy on my bare shoulders

and i'm surprised at how

i'm slowly beginning to unravel

again

sometimes i feel as if

you see me as an option

rather than the solution

every time i hold you, hug you, feel you

fall asleep on your chest, make eye contact

i take my time

making note of all details

as if it's always the last time

a series of peaks and valleys

presence and absence

you expand and contract your heart

without warning

sending surges of uncertainty and doubt

violently through me

goosebumps, a familiar feeling now

you said when you think of me

all you see are possibilities

but all you set are limits

at times i begin to tire of this

i want more of you

please let me in