none of that, please

you like things to be just so

patient and stable

so you can buy yourself time

and excuses

to move at your own pace

untrusting and vulnerable

in your soft-spoken way

a kate nash kind of morning

polka dot moon

spoonfuls of violet flower gelato

minimized expectations

a delicate level of intimacy

stealing kisses in the dark

sharing slices of pumpkin loaf

crawling into bed

to spoon and fall asleep

birthday cake

when all the cake has been eaten and everyone has gone home

i will walk through my apartment shoeless

in my dress and tights

clutch that pillow on the couch and fall asleep

***

a bouquet of white lilies

in aluminum foil wrapping

a couple of pork belly tacos and cans of tecate

topped off with a walk through wicker park

arm in arm

to avoid any kind of falling

physical

emotional

my feet are firmly planted

and i refuse to let them go

rage

morning you

on this journey

i do not have the luxury of slowing down

ravenous with curiosity

every day provides opportunity

take my hand or not

i'll only extend it for so long

mad decent

things are going super-well

i'm motivated and can't stop saying super

because i am just that happy

working and baking, biking and swooning

over me

that's right, over myself

i'm off to get a soy latte

and to brighten someone's day with a hug

and a loaf of freshly baked bread

now go smile at at stranger

it'll make you feel amazing!

(please note the "zing!" in amazing!)

an adult relationship

october

this is the the time of year when i am the happiest

maybe it's my upcoming birthday,

the weather change, the layered fashion, the soy hot chocolates

nothing can get me down when the days are like today

i rode my bike as fast as i could

i've never really ridden late at night in the fall

was nice, kind of lonely, but peaceful

my body was warm, my muscles achy, my hands numb

all i could feel was the biting air hitting my face

and it felt good

bulletproof

floral print

every day is a commitment

to hold on to my intention

to prioritize my own well-being

in order to control my own destiny